escape...

i turned my cellphone off and i have no intention of putting it on, not now. i wanted some silence.

actually, yesterday i planned to go to tagaytay, all by myself. wala lang, i just thought i need a breather and i need some escape... however, i wasn't able to do so, got a demanding project and upon reviewing the workplan, i noticed that it should be submitted by 13th of august for user-acceptance testing. and so i forced myself to go to work yesterday.

today, i am here in my room. i locked my door, i closed the windows. i cried. i don't know, maybe i am physically tired... but i pray that i won't burn out...

i promise myself after this project i would go to tagaytay.. anyway 20th and 27th of August is declared holidays... and off i'll go ... i'll escape to be alone.

i believe...

shelby was an attractive woman in her mid30's who genuinely desired to be married. she had prayed and prayed but had never even had a serious relationship with a man. in fact, she hadn't been out on a date within the last 2 or 3 years. she was tempted to be discouraged, assuming that nothing was happening and that she might spend the remainder of her life as a single woman.

but one night, she was driving home from work when she had a flat tire and had to pull her car over to the side of the freeway. a few seconds later, another car pulled over behind her, and out stepped a handsome, young man. he not only changed shelby's flat tire, he also invited her out to dinner.

about a year later, they got married and today they are wonderfully happy and in love.

now think about the odds such an occurrence. that certainly was not an accident or a coincidence. that was God at work in the lives of two young adults. God is always at time. her tire had to go bad at just the right time. there had to be just the right amount of traffic on the freeway. that young man had to catch just the right elevator leaving the office. he had to go down to the split second in order for his car to be shortly behind shelby's, when the tire went flat. God is making things happen. just stay in an attitude of faith and in His timing.

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i've had had my share of men courting me, but i am still waiting for the man God has promised to me sometime in 2003. God promised to give me a man after His own heart. and when i asked God how would i know or recognize "him"? He replied, "just like a banner raised on a mountaintop, you will see it or just like when a trumphet sounds, you will hear it." that when love knocks at the door of my heart, i will clearly recognize it...... but for now, i will wait and have faith... i believe...

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When I Get Where I'm Going - Geoff Moore

When I get where I’m going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I’m gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly

I’m gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it’s like
To ride a drop of rain

Chorus:
Yeah, when I get where I’m going
There’ll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I’ll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah, when I get where I’m going
Don’t cry for me down here

I’m gonna walk with my granddaddy
And he’ll match me step for step
And I’ll tell him how I’ve missed him
Every minute since he left

So much pain and so much darkness
This world we stumble through
All these questions I can’t answer
So much work to do

But when I get where I’m going
And I see my Maker’s face
I’ll stand forever in the light
Of His amazing grace

friends...

friends make you laugh,

they can make you cry and they cry with you

friends believe in the beauty of your dreams

and help you make them come true

friends share your deepest secrets

and keep it with them as one of their secrets too

friends take you as you are

and never leave you when you need them

friends come in different sizes
small, medium and large and some are extra sizes
they also come in all ages
some old, some young and some as your age
nevertheless, they are what you call friends...

i will always thank the Lord for all my friends... :)

sleeping habits...

i sleep with lights on.
i just noticed myself turning off the lights before i sleep nowadays...

quite odd for me who can't sleep without the lights...

it will take place...

i believe in God
His promises are TRUE
it will be fulfilled
if it seems slow in coming,
i will wait patiently
for it will surely take place
it will not be delayed...

even though the fig trees have no blossoms,
and there are no grapes on the vines...
yet I will rejoice in the Lord!
I will be joyful in the God of my Salvation!
The Sovereign Lord is my strength!
He makes me as surefooted as a deer,
able to thread upon the heights.

a promise

photo taken 27th of may 2007;

facing the ladies dorm at Philippine Baptist Theological Seminary (PBTS),

Guisad, Baguio City.

an ordinary scene, two trees facing each other along a narrow path. so what's in it, anyway?

my companions were busy negotiating with PBTS about the food and accomodations for the DNG Pilipinas 2007. i wait outside, and communed with God.

the first thing that i saw was the big pine tree, a strong, sturdy and old tree... and in a far away corner was a small, just-starting to grow pine tree...

God impressed on me that, that big pine tree was someone i knew, someone i liked so much... he was someone i always looked up to... a great and a established man! and that small tree was me, just starting to grow, just starting to learn things...

and then God allowed me to see that two trees in the picture. i prayed, "Lord, give me someone who will be just right beside me, someone whom i'll grow old with, that together we'll learn how to live life... someone that fits me well."

after a few more minutes staring at the sight, i went back inside. and on the wall, i saw a poster saying:

"The good thing that you desire

will become the best thing

when you allow God

to give it to you

in His time."

He has made everything beautiful in its time." - Eccl 3:11

God's way of answering my prayer, i believe.

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i will keep on believing God's promises
i might have to wait for sometime
but one thing i know
"it is sure, it is the best thing... it'll be beautiful"
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i can go the distance

I have often dreamed, of a far off place
Where a hero’s welcome, would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer, when they see my face
And a VOICE keeps saying, this is where I’m meant to be


I’ll be there someday, I can go the distance
I will find my way, if I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile, will be worth my while
When I go the distance, I’ll be right where I belong


Down an unknown road, to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander, it will lead me to you
And a thousand years, would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime, but somehow I’ll see it through


And I won’t look back, I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track, no, I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope, but I won’t lose hope
Till I go the distance, and my journey is complete


But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting star, I will go the distance
I will search the world, I will face its’ harms


I don’t care how far, I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in YOUR arms
I will search the world, I will face it’s harms
Till I find my hero’s welcome, waiting in YOUR arms


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ONE DAY... we'll meet face to face...
may i find my hero's welcome in Your arms, Lord.
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