Give it up...

I've got my chance in love. I met a man, I do not even remember how the conversation started, but it just began. I was at the NAIA terminal then, I arrived an hour earlier than my check-in time. After I paid the taxes, I found a seat and so I said to myself that I'll just buy time by reading a book I brought with me. I was also conversing with some friends thru SMS... some of their advices was not to talk to anyone.

But I could just not ignore people when they are talking to me. He was sitting beside me and he started the conversation. I really dont remember what he said, but as friendly as I am... the conversation began. we talked about so many things for about an hour. The one thing that stucked on my mind was that he doesn't liked my country, that my country was a poor country, he compared it to Malaysia, Thailand and to his country. His supposedly one-month vacation lasted only for ten days and he decided to go back to his country. That is why he's in NAIA waiting for a chance to get home as soon as an airline seat be made available for him.

After an hour, I said goodbye and readied myself to check-in my baggage. But before I left, he asked for my YM ID and I have given it to him (friendly nga kasi ako!). I thought it was all that. A simple conversation, a mere acquiantance. But after my tour in Singapore, he sent me a message thru YM. He said, he couldn't take his mind off of me, that my face is tattooed on his mind. He also said that he doesn't know if we will be able to see each other again, yet he's still thinking of me... and so much more. He called me up on Christmas to greet me.

I kindda ignore it at first. But last time, he said that he might return here in the Philippines just to see me. Oh, that made my heart beat faster. It's an overwhelming experience, for me. Remember, he doesn't like my country and yet he's going back just to see me? Me? Haha! I may have blinded someone for the first time. =)

But that made me think a hundred even a thousand times. He's a Muslim. I am a born-again Christian. He is a good man. He has a real estate business and is currently working in the ministry (government in his country). I believe that he will be a good husband and a good father based on his stories about his family... his parents and siblings. But, to me it's really a big conflict having a different faith.

This morning, I prayed that God would lead me to the right path. That I will be wise in the decision that I make. I asked myself if I can exchange my faith in Jesus Christ to someone who can be my husband? Hindi ko pala kaya. I couldn't exchange my Lord to something that is just temporal. I know that my God could give me more than I could ask or imagine! He will soon give me a partner in life who would grow old with me, walking each step of the way hand in hand... I do believe that He can give me all the things that I need and so much more. One day, he will come into my life... only God knows when.

I'm giving my all to the Lord. I know that if I surrender to Him what I desire, if I give it up, He can give me with so much more, more than I can imagine. So I'm giving Him my heart, I even prayed for my mind to be renewed. Knowing and believing that He will not withhold anything that is good for me. I realized that I could not exchange Him for anything else in the world.